"a mind that is stretched by new experiences
can never go back to its old dimensions."
Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts
Showing posts with label spirituality. Show all posts
a grand canyon adventure!
how and why it's taken 30 years for me to get here, i have no idea :) while visiting nevada with no real plans other than to spend quality time with some special people i love the most, we ended up making the drive to arizona to explore the southern grand canyon rim. it was absolutely breathtaking! these photos don't do justice for how incredibly amazing it really was to take in... and i would've been perfectly at peace getting lost here. yes, i'll be back.
"a mind that is stretched by new experiences
can never go back to its old dimensions."
"a mind that is stretched by new experiences
can never go back to its old dimensions."
i write to free my mind and empty my heart...
after my last serious relationship, of which i felt i had no choice but to end it for the greater good of us both, my heart was completely broken and spirit shattered into infinite shards. as cliche as it might sound, it truly was harder to leave someone you still loved and wanted to love... but it was where we found ourselves, after almost 7 years, that forced me to have be honest with myself and accept the fact that maybe we were never going to be enough.
during that last year, we found ourselves lost on a downward spiral, struggling to fool ourselves into believing we could overcome anything... unforseeable things happened, and our once healthy, passionate and thriving relationship became toxic before we even knew what hit us. at the end, there were no more what if's to be wavered or explored... we both tried the best we could. and although i trust we could've continued to try, it was a hard pill to swallow knowing that we were our own worst enemies as much as we were each other's muses.
to this day, i choose to emphasize the good, but it doesn't mean i'm in oblivious of all the bad that existed too. it simply means i am thankful... 'tis better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all. and with that, i've continued to remain inspired even after all that hurt.
after all, i was never angry. at the conclusion of what started off as a great love story, i was devastated - yes, but i was also hopeful for the rest of my life. deeply wounded, but found strength and solace in welcoming all the motions that came with mourning the death of my greatest tragedy. for change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. to the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. to the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. and to the confident it's inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better... and regardless of the demons that accompanied the angels, i've always known where i stood in the grand scheme of it all.
i' believe good things come to those who wait, even if they've been disappointed. and what continues to drive me is that amazing feeling to know that some of the best days of our lives haven't even happened yet! it was with this optimistic outlook, in tandem with time, that i started my healing process and embody the wisdom of understanding that sometimes hearts only break in order to truly open. <3
after i was also able to finally tape back together my broken sense of self, i found myself on an introspective journey to get "reacquainted" from the inside out. this lasted for about 3 years before i even began to entertain the idea of possibly writing another love story with my heart on my sleeves. sure, i dated and even met several amazing people... but it wasn't a coincidence that i always found myself ending relationships before they could really develop into something i knew i was not yet ready to whole-heartedly embrace. needless to say, when i was finally ready though - i was ready.
it wasn't until i met him, not more than 4 months after making the conscious decision to allow love back in my life, that everything started to come together and begin to make sense once again. it's true what they say, when you really want something and are ready for it the universe will conspire in your favor. <3 thank you for reminding me what butterflies feel like, N! i am excited for our next set of adventures together and where ever they may lead us... you are my some kind of wonderful. oh, how i love it when i can say that and truly believe it! :)
during that last year, we found ourselves lost on a downward spiral, struggling to fool ourselves into believing we could overcome anything... unforseeable things happened, and our once healthy, passionate and thriving relationship became toxic before we even knew what hit us. at the end, there were no more what if's to be wavered or explored... we both tried the best we could. and although i trust we could've continued to try, it was a hard pill to swallow knowing that we were our own worst enemies as much as we were each other's muses.
to this day, i choose to emphasize the good, but it doesn't mean i'm in oblivious of all the bad that existed too. it simply means i am thankful... 'tis better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all. and with that, i've continued to remain inspired even after all that hurt.
after all, i was never angry. at the conclusion of what started off as a great love story, i was devastated - yes, but i was also hopeful for the rest of my life. deeply wounded, but found strength and solace in welcoming all the motions that came with mourning the death of my greatest tragedy. for change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. to the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. to the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. and to the confident it's inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better... and regardless of the demons that accompanied the angels, i've always known where i stood in the grand scheme of it all.
i' believe good things come to those who wait, even if they've been disappointed. and what continues to drive me is that amazing feeling to know that some of the best days of our lives haven't even happened yet! it was with this optimistic outlook, in tandem with time, that i started my healing process and embody the wisdom of understanding that sometimes hearts only break in order to truly open. <3
after i was also able to finally tape back together my broken sense of self, i found myself on an introspective journey to get "reacquainted" from the inside out. this lasted for about 3 years before i even began to entertain the idea of possibly writing another love story with my heart on my sleeves. sure, i dated and even met several amazing people... but it wasn't a coincidence that i always found myself ending relationships before they could really develop into something i knew i was not yet ready to whole-heartedly embrace. needless to say, when i was finally ready though - i was ready.
it wasn't until i met him, not more than 4 months after making the conscious decision to allow love back in my life, that everything started to come together and begin to make sense once again. it's true what they say, when you really want something and are ready for it the universe will conspire in your favor. <3 thank you for reminding me what butterflies feel like, N! i am excited for our next set of adventures together and where ever they may lead us... you are my some kind of wonderful. oh, how i love it when i can say that and truly believe it! :)
allineed in this life of sin, ismeand my girlfriends.
...on a soul-searching road trip from wisconsin out to south dakota with my 2 kindred spirits. how we got there and what stops we made were determined during the journey - and pee breaks, haha - happy 29th golden birthday, lada! love you.
and thank you, sue, for being a trooper even though you were 6 months pregnant. it just wouldn't have been the same without you! that said, i'm so happy the trio went out with a bang to celebrate and mark the occasion... before the rest of our lives change with the arrival of baby boy and what ever the next chapters presents to us from here on out!
"as we grow older, we realize it's
not as important to have a ton of friends but
more important
to have real ones."
and thank you, sue, for being a trooper even though you were 6 months pregnant. it just wouldn't have been the same without you! that said, i'm so happy the trio went out with a bang to celebrate and mark the occasion... before the rest of our lives change with the arrival of baby boy and what ever the next chapters presents to us from here on out!
"as we grow older, we realize it's
not as important to have a ton of friends but
more important
to have real ones."
shhh... la vie est belle!
and once again, the seasons click. i woke up to the first snowfall of the season here in northcentral wisconsin! it's indeed beautiful :) what an absolute difference a little white makes. i even enjoyed a hot cup of homemade chicken & carrot noodle soup out there this morning, to the backdrop of big, fluffy snowflakes taking it's sweet time!
let it snow, let it snow... let it snow. oh, the beauty you can find if only eyes were closed and hearts open. listen carefully, the silence is eye opening!
let it snow, let it snow... let it snow. oh, the beauty you can find if only eyes were closed and hearts open. listen carefully, the silence is eye opening!
so lovely is the loneliness of a wild lake!
"i've always liked the time before dawn because there's no one around to remind me who i'm supposed to be, so it's easier to remember who i am." <3
pieces of me..!
om/ohm/aum. believed to be the basic sound of the world and to contain all other sounds... the sound of the universe. in essence, the entire universe is moving. nothing is ever solid or still and everything that exists pulsates, creating a rhythmic vibration that the ancient yogis acknowledged with the sound of "om."
we may not always be aware of this sound in our daily lives, but we can hear it in the rustling of the autumn leaves, the waves on the shore, the inside of a seashell. it allows us to recognize our experience as a reflection of how the whole universe moves – the setting sun, the rising moon, the ebb and flow of the tides, the beating of our hearts. and as we chant this sound, it takes us for a ride on this universal movement, through our breath, our awareness, and our physical energy. and we begin to sense a bigger connection that is both uplifting and soothing...
we may not always be aware of this sound in our daily lives, but we can hear it in the rustling of the autumn leaves, the waves on the shore, the inside of a seashell. it allows us to recognize our experience as a reflection of how the whole universe moves – the setting sun, the rising moon, the ebb and flow of the tides, the beating of our hearts. and as we chant this sound, it takes us for a ride on this universal movement, through our breath, our awareness, and our physical energy. and we begin to sense a bigger connection that is both uplifting and soothing...
the symbol design can also be seen as a symbolic representation of the various psychological compartments of the psyche; an inner dimensional map of the various compartments of human consciousness and the relationship each has to the divine within.
the long lower curve represents the dreaming state. the upper curve stands for the waking state. the curve which emanates from the center represents deep sleep, beyond dreams. the crescent stands for the veil of material illusion. and the "dot" is the transcendental self. dorothy. dig it.
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