hello, friends and followers... i'm sorry if it seems as if i've neglected my blog and social commitments in the past few weeks; i'm only now getting around to playing catch up! and even so, it's still with minimal time and effort until a healthier balance can naturally surface once life begins to fall back into place. for the record, it is very out of character for me to pull a stunt like this, so i hope you understand.
long story short, there have been too many life events to deal with this march! in the last month alone, there have been more unfortunate deaths and tragedies around me than what i've ever had to experience in all my years of life, combined. and this includes my mum's youngest sister who lost the battle to cancer at 5:48am this past sunday morning.
treatment for my aunt had stopped months ago due to its stage... and since then, it's been a mere waiting game. witnessing my mum's emotional rut as she tried to remain strong was heartbreaking, too. i can definitely sympathize with the bond shared between sisters - i have 4, who i hold near and dear to my heart - but to have to live through burying one? i've been fortunate enough to not yet be confronted with such a tragedy and can only imagine the wreck i would be in, myself! my deepest condolences to my mum, uncles and aunts! and my cousins! my heart aches.
this past weekend, before the gates of heaven opened for my aunt, my sisters and some of our friends got together and spent it in a cabin in wisconsin dells and enjoyed a saturday night downtown! it wasn't until learning of the news the following day that made me appreciate the moments of the night prior. cherish every thing! love your sisters and collect moments!
maybe it has to do with age - or maybe it's just my life right now - but i've noticed death has become a recurring reality since having a particular conversation with my bestfriend that i can still accurately recall/pinpoint, on new year's eve after she had just learned of the passing of one of her loved ones.
anyways, before this update turns too morbid - march wasn't all tragic. there were a couple of highlights thrown in there too... but i just wanted let you all know i'm alive and well; just stretched thin in every which direction, right now, sorting out thoughts and emotions before plunging back into my blogosphere!
and to think, i was so excited at the end of february... it just goes to show how quickly life can go awry and priorities shifted to accommodate what's important. :/
"don't forget you're human. it's okay to have a meltdown, just don't unpack and live there. cry it out and then refocus on where you are headed." exhale.